Today is my 64th daily post. This one is hard, and I don't know why. I am struggling with words today. There is nothing particularly different about today than other days. Well, I am more tired than usual.
The last couple of nights, I have not slept well. That might have something to do with the writer's block. Often, I can free-write for a while, and something comes up. Not today. Everything I write seems disconnected.
Disconnected does explain my mental state today. Many times, I have too many thoughts going on at once, and it's hard to focus on a single idea. Today is the exact opposite–I am struggling to find an idea that I can give life to.
Yet here I am, being vulnerable and writing what I feel. Vulnerability is something people need to practice more. It helps people connect. To be vulnerable is to show trust. Trust is hard for many people. They feel uncomfortable trusting because they are afraid of being hurt.
When I write to you, I am trusting you with my thoughts and feelings, even though we may never have met. Right now, as I pen this article, trust is a big deal. I know this post is raw. Today, there is no other way for me to write. And I trust you will, if nothing else, understand me.
Disconnected? Yes. But I'm OK with being vulnerable and showing the real me. I never want to be fake with you, dear reader. I will not hide myself when I don't feel like writing. That's not who I am.
How vulnerable are you to your family, friends, and acquaintances? When was the last time you were trusting enough to be the real you? I'd love to hear about it.
—Daniel